Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Taking Charge

I went to see my primary doctor today. We had a good chat about everything and anything that has transpired over the last 2 months since my last appointment with him. There was quite a lot of information to give him. From my adventure with facet joint injections in my lower back to swine flu. I was very up front and honest and told him that I needed him to listen to me. I told him that these medicines for this disease aren’t working for me. They are actually making me sick with other things that are requiring an additional medication to help with relief. My body is becoming septic and turning on itself. I refuse to have to take medications for every little thing that crops up. I will not be medication dependent. That is insane!

He told me that sometimes doctor’s couldn’t cure things and sometimes in their eagerness to try to help with the cure, they inadvertently do the opposite. The smart ones back track and try a different method later. He is taking me off the meds for right now. Praise God! He said he wanted to see me back in a month and we may try a different route. I do know that right now, this is the destination to go. I also realize that with this decision it will bring me back to the living hell I have experienced the last 13 years of my adult life. Better the devil you know than the one you don’t, right? I least I can look this one in the eye, grit my teeth, and keep my mouth shut daily about how I really feel. Masks I am good at.

- Gigi



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